"All aboard the spontaneous express...never the less, always the more"

fly me to the moon...

So much on my mind that i cant recline, blasting holes in the night tell she bled sunshine...

breath in, enhale vapors from bright stars that shine,

breath out weed smoke retrace the skyline,

heard the bass ride out like an ancient mating call

i cant take it yall

i can hear the city breathing, chest heaving, against the flesh of the evening...

-Rodrick Sean Freeman aka Rodzilla the Blackademic (@blackademic)

See, all I want to do is be relevant

I wonder why,
I sit and cry;
Wish I could share all these tears.
I'm down and out.
I keep on moving and try to get out.

I don't know how to move on,
Where I went wrong,
Wish I could live with no fear.
So down and out,
I keep it moving and try to get out,
Some how....

Wale - Diary

May 2010

When I graduate, I promise to never bore myself with these things (currently referencing this paper I must write, on a subject I just don't find stimulating). I'm going to finish what I started, but come May 2010, its ALL ABOUT ME.

I was going to tweet this, and then I realized I wanted to write more. It's truly sad that I have to declare that I am going to live my life for myself, seeing as this is my life, and if I'm not in charge then who is? Nonetheless, I am well aware that there is no one to blame but me. Nothing at all is stopping me from getting up out of this Gelman Library, going home, packing my bags and peacing out. I have made the CHOICE to wake up every morning and participate here at GWU. Therefore, I must deal with the fact that I made this choice. So, this is not meant to be an angry rant. This is more of a friendly reminder to myself that I have chosen to spend a year doing a lot of things that I do not particularly desire to do, like research topics that I have no interest in when there are a host of books and movies and skills that I would like to read, watch and acquire. Every moment in time is a moment for us to do something. I prefer to spend those moments doing things I genuinely am thrilled to be doing, or something like, washing the dishes, that will make me happier in the end. Yes, I'd probably like to wash dishes more than I'd like to write this paper right now......