Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-William Ernest Henley

if you wish to know the mind of a man, listen to his words

'Tell me and I'll forget; Show me and I may remember; Involve me and I'll understand.'

i like it when my days are filled with meaningful activities

frustrations :via twitter

quality over quantity please! less than 10 seconds ago via web

doing lots of things doesnt necessarily equate to accomplishing something. half a minute ago via web

I like to be busy but I dont like busy work. 1 minutes ago via web


I AM SICK OF BEING BUSY WITH LOTS OF THINGS THAT I DONT CARE ABOUT, THAT ARENT PERSONALLY FULFILLING ME, THAT I AM NOT PASSIONATE ABOUT.

time to make some changes!! But how??????????

We are all the artists of our own productions and intuition is our surest guide to the next scene.

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.

....and then I go on pandora and hear this song I've never heard before called 'Better Days' - GooGoo Dolls

And you asked me what I want this year
and I try to make this kind and clear
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
'cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
and designer love and empty things
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words and sing out loud
'cause everyone is forgiven now
'cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I need some place simple where we could live
and something only you can give
and that's faith and trust and peace while we're alive
and the one poor child who saved this world
and there's ten million more who probably could
if we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words and sing out loud
'cause everyone is forgiven now
'cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
and somehow stop this endless fight
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words and sing out loud
'cause everyone is forgiven now
'cause tonight's the night the world begins again

'cause tonight's the night the world begins again

funny.

point two seconds after publishing the last post, I read this on Twitter.

B_Rog

can't please everybody. And when you can't please yourself it becomes a mess.

...what a koinkydink of relevance!

WHAT IS THE POINT!?

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort."

So lately, I've been unbelievably busy. Late nights, not sleeping, trying to get all these things that need to be done. But what are these things that need to be done, and what/who am I doing them for? Am I doing them for the betterment of myself? What is the purpose? Me staying up cramming information for a test, is not educating myself; its simply a push to get an A. And why do I feel like I need this A? Because I have to 'make it' in the world, and I cant do that without A's? That's an awful and limiting mindset. I have come to school to learn, and quite frankly I feel like I have been doing a poor job at doing so. And all of these activities I am involved in, what can I give so that I can in turn take away something valuable and say that it was worth while spending my time on this? I want to make good use of each minute of my day. I would like to have more time to spend and talk with my family and friends. I would like a significant other. Which also reminds me of how I go about doing so. I dont even have time to go out and do things I like and in turn meet someone with similar interests. Am I looking for this person to make me happy or add to my happiness? The answer to that right now is that it cant be adding because I do not believe I am truly happy. Not that there is necessarily something wrong, but I do not feel fulfilled or invigorated by my day to day activities. I feel as if I am going through the motions. Also, how can you be too busy for love? That is just awful.

I refuse to let this life be the death of me. All this energy I am expending, I want it to be towards a purpose that I can end the day saying, I am glad I did all of those things.

"Life isnt about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

Look. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. And I know that I am in charge of that. I have got to find a way to break out of this box of madness and step into the light!! But how can I just erase all thats going on and start now. I cant. I cant just quit school. I cant just denounce all of my activities, people depend on me. But is this the limiting mentality that is keeping me here? Who says I cant leave school? Who says I cant denounce my activities? Is it selfish or is it looking out for self?

So many questions....and the possibilities are endless.

“I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself.”

-Brittany Renee

“I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself.”

-Brittany Renee

Those who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it.
— Chinese Proverb.

Live your dreams and DON'T lose time explaining them. Nobody is going to understand anyway - Paulo Coelho