SIGH.

Today, I have come to a sad realization. Sitting around waiting for a text, getting more and more anxious as time passes but my phone doesn't buzz. Anxious turns to angry. Where is the enjoyment in liking someone? I guess I get upset when I want them around and they aren't there. And now I'm just annoyed to be liking him. It was fine before when I just didn't have someone else to preoccupy my thoughts. And now I realize that I am so good at making myself not like people probably because I'm scared of feeling like this. It makes me feel crazy to want to be around someone who doesn't want to be around me. And I feel like it always happens that I want them around and they don't necessarily want to be there, or that the other way and I'm annoyed as fuck by them. When will I catch a break and be met in the middle? How do I love love so much but I cant even make it through liking someone?